Daily there are thousands of
posts returning undelivered for various reasons like door locked, party
shifted, no such addressee etc. This also happens in our personal life. Daily
we send thousands of thoughts, prayers, wishes, feelings, hopes and words across to
people around us. But many of them return undelivered to us as the receiver’s
minds refuse to accept them. One such cry of hope from a daughter’s heart which
unfortunately was returned undelivered:
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Dear Maa,
Today as the world celebrates an
occasion dedicated to mothers, I want to confess something to you.
Remember the day when I was all
of 10 and I had come running to you crying hysterically. I wanted to tell you
about that Uncle Maa…who used to touch me at wrong places. You thought I was
imagining things. You hit me on my hands as you felt this was due to over
exposure of stupid movies. You assumed I did not know how to behave myself and
did not speak to me for two days as a punishment. I cried a lot and apologized
to you so that you would speak to me again Maa. You forgave me with a promise
that I will not cook up such stories again. I promised and hugged you tightly.
That night I buried that child in me……
I grew up and had my first crush.
I felt love for the first time which was always missing between you and dad.
You detested him while I loved him madly. I had managed to secure admission to
my dream course. You threatened me. I relented and asked you to let me study
promising to forget that boy. You broke the pact Maa….and I could never pursue
my dream course ever again.
That night I buried those dreams in me…..
As I grew up and it was time for
my marriage you thought I was a shrew who needed to be tamed. You never heard
my pleas that all I ever wanted was love and care. You found a ‘perfect match’ for me; an educated
person with decent income for whom I was only a source of entertainment. The
day I got married you were beaming with joy as your dream had come true.
That night I buried the heart in me…….
I underwent many things but
according to you it was my fault. You felt your upbringing had failed. You
thought I was too stubborn to accommodate and adjust. Despite seeing my
condition you sent me back that day loaded with lots of advice on how to please
my husband and in-laws.
That night I buried the soul in me…..
I was happy when I got the ‘good news’. I was excited to bring a
new life in this world. For me it was a soul – for others it was a gender. That
day they decided to kill that soul while I lay blissfully unaware. When I woke
up everything was over.
That night I buried
the woman in me…..
Maa… this dying in bits and
pieces has exhausted me completely. There is nothing more left in me. I can
only see a dark tunnel in the name of the future as I stretch my neck to look
forward to those beautiful tomorrows you spoke about always. It takes a mammoth
effort from me each day to survive and today there is no more strength left in
me.
Tonight I quit as I bury
the remnants in me….
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!
From,
Your loving daughter.
Excellent piece of writing! Poignant!:)
ReplyDeleteThanks :)
DeleteI was reading and feeling as if I have read that before. I felt as if I knew what was going to follow. Maybe it is just too close to my story, maybe
ReplyDeleteM touched :o)
DeleteI strongly believe there must be some special connection because of which you felt all that while reading this post. Thank you so much for making me feel special!
It makes me very sad for none of my words thoughts or dreams were ever listened to. I wanted to tell about that uncle too but my words were never heard.
ReplyDeleteBelieve me when I say, I can truly understand how does that feel... thanks for being here.
Deleteamazing amazing writing
ReplyDeleteThank you :o)
DeleteBrilliant! powerfully penned.
ReplyDeleteThanx!!
DeletePulled my heartstrings, and made me sad and thoughtful.
ReplyDeleteI am glad it made you thoughtful - that was the main intention behind this post. I want each one of us to think what we are doing in the name of customs and traditions.
DeleteCustoms, which are of no use, needs to be stopped. Traditions which have no explantion need not be followed. Only being human, kind and supportive is needed in family.
DeleteDitto - my thoughts. But I think we are still far away from that ideal world you described. We all need to understand this and make an effort towards improving things collectively.
DeleteHey! The views are delivered straight. The helplessness of the daughter and carelessness of the mother are written so beautifully! Nice one!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much...for understanding the exact feeling I had in mind when I wrote this.
DeleteWelcome here...hope to see you here more often!
This is so sad .. if only parents put their kids always first , and listen to them ..
ReplyDeleteI dont know what to say ...
I do beleive there are parents like these and maybe More now then their use to be as everyone lives in their own world
Bikram's
Yes there are parents like this and it is a sad fact of today's world. I wish we all would stop doing this to each other soon...
DeleteThis is much more than beautiful! :')
ReplyDeleteThanks ..... you know this post is very close to my heart and this comment of yours touched me.
Deleteadbutam
ReplyDeleteThx :)
DeleteWow..It's really a great post..wonderfully written. congrats..
ReplyDeleteThx !
DeleteA beautiful and stunning piece of writing..
ReplyDeleteThank you so much :)
DeleteJust heart-breaking . . . beautifully rendered - a powerful, powerful letter.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Martha....!
DeleteAn interesting work I would say. This shows very cruel part of a Mother ? Isn't that?
ReplyDeleteP.S: Rules are applicable here as well. ;)
Well that was MEAN!! :/
DeleteAppreciate your comments but I dont agree to the cruel part of a mother. A mother herself is also bound by many customs and traditions which she has seen since childhood and it is difficult for her to break those shackles to see a different world. Her psyche has developed to a level where she is unable to see the pain her rigid thoughts are causing she can just imagine the shame it will bring to them. It is this rigidity in nature that leads to all this. I am sure this mother would never be able to forgive herself after reading this....!
I didn't get you point exactly. I think I lost in between somewhere.
DeleteMy take is But someone has to start ! and why you want to make mother realise as you are telling she can't change herself as she is in the shackles of this tradition and customs?
Nope...neither did you nor did I lose out in between somewhere. I agree someone has to start and this post was intended to make each one of us realise this .
DeleteMy intention was not to make a mother realise anything. I am sure somewhere deep inside the corners of her heart she already knows all that was happening. But she is helpless. I wanted US as a society to realise how painful it all is...this age old customs and traditions.
Hope I am able to explain my POV to you by this :)
Wow...I'm at a loss for too many words. Beautiful writing...you definitely have a way of drawing the reader in.
ReplyDeleteI can understand....everytime I read it - it has the same effect on me too. How can we is the first thought that comes to my mind!
DeleteThank you so much for such beautiful words..truly appreciated!
Amazingly profound.....so true.
ReplyDeleteSadly yes....this is the truth. Our society strangely follows so many customs without thinking about their relevance in today's times at all.
DeleteThanks for stopping by !!
You've left me speechless!
ReplyDelete:o)
DeleteThis is such a poignant piece of writing. The tortures a major portion of the fairer sex have to suffer but they are so helpless at times that they can't do any thing about it...poignant, 'Me'.... so moving and at the same time infused with harsh reality... love it :):)
ReplyDeleteThanx for such lovely words :)
DeleteOur society needs to realise the kind of pain it in inflicting on the fairer sex by trying to follow some age old traditions and customs which have become redundant by now.
I feel so sad for the daughter :-(
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautifully written and the impact is so strong.
Sometimes we are so helpless in the vicious circle of circumstances.
DeleteThank you so much for your lovely compliments :)
Such a heart-felt post..and why it is undelivered is so true....not accepted by receiver's mind !!!
ReplyDeleteThe mother never meant to be bad but was unable to release herself from the clutches of years of conditioning in the name of custom, tradition, approvals of society....she prefers to keep the child's 'story' in back burner coz she feels the shame and juicy talks it would bring from the 'civilized' society would be more painful...
Thank you so much for appreciating this and truly understanding my feelings behind writing this post.
DeleteLovely post! so poignant, leading one on and on till the final act of destruction!!
ReplyDelete:)
Delete'Final Act of destruction' well that is what this was!!
Welcome here and hope to see you here more often !
This is an excellent piece!! Beautiful, poignant and reaches your heart straight. With a post like this, you totally deserved to win. Sheer brilliance.
ReplyDeleteThank you very much Swarnali :)
DeleteGlad you liked my thoughts!
BRILLIANT PIECE!!
ReplyDeleteOut of all the posts you have written, this definitely holds the dearest place in my heart.
<3
Same pinch - this one is my favourite too!
DeleteI somehow feel it has a magic which can never be re-created by me ever again :)
Thank you so much!
<3 <3 <3
Always welcome Me!!
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DeleteMy eyes filled with tears after reading it...i fealt sad for the daughter as her own mother could never understand and with each passing day she kept on losing something finally lost herself as nothing was left as all her dreams crashed in a prospect of a vague future which never meant to be as she was made to believe...!!!
ReplyDeleteloved it a lot...!!!
This is one of my most favourite posts till date on my blog and I also cry everytime I read it! It holds a piece of me in it :)
DeleteYes, I also feel sad for the daughter but I also feel sad for the mother as she was also a victim of circumstances and nothing else.
Thanks, glad you loved it!
I had tears after reading this poignant post. A women needs only love and understanding which vanishes into thin air. emotions are very well captured.
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