In conversation
Not very
long ago the greys accentuated the skyline; and the stars did not shine.
But my heart
remembered the warmth of sunshine that surrounded me sometime back!
I kept
staring as the darkness kept getting darker, the darkness of my life merging
with the darkness around me.
The
twinkling stars full of hope seemed a matter of past –My heartbeats matching
the thunders that surrounded me now.
There has to
be an end to this agony my heart said but my eyes were blinded by nothing.
All I had
were questions and all I sought for were answers.
I looked at
the skies and screamed can you feel my pain? It thundered back in response to
affirm.
My heart
felt like the parched piece of land dying to feel a drop of love and quench its
thirst.
That one
glimmer of hope, that silver lining amongst it all was what my eyes looked out
for.
And suddenly
one flash and it all ended….. Or did it begin..?
Will you cry
with me I ask…. And slowly I get the answer.
The greys
parted ways to let the tears flow…. One by one letting it all go.
The mountain
of pain… the agony… the hurt was melting as I felt the raindrops kissing my
face
My tears
merged with drops washing away all my hurt and fears like grime and dirt
Is it a
mirage I question myself only to be drenched more fiercely in the rain of love
and faith.
I close my
eyes letting a part of me go away creating space for the newness to replace
nothingness.
Arms
outstretched I stand there as finally life hugged me back, touching my soul and
making me whole!
P.S: I had read
somewhere, loneliness is not something you feel when you are alone. It is
something you feel when you are surrounded by people and yet feel alone. This
poem was born out of such loneliness. My recent
trip to Delhi, my childhood city brought back some old memories associated with
it and this view is from my hotel room located on the 6th floor.
Must be the giddiness you feel when you are on a height or must be the low
feeling you get when you are lonely despite being with someone! And yes this conversation
did happen in real and the skies did cry with me in answer.
