Post Returned Undelivered


Daily there are thousands of posts returning undelivered for various reasons like door locked, party shifted, no such addressee etc. This also happens in our personal life. Daily we send thousands of thoughts, prayers, wishes, feelings, hopes and words across to people around us. But many of them return undelivered to us as the receiver’s minds refuse to accept them. One such cry of hope from a daughter’s heart which unfortunately was returned undelivered:


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Dear Maa,

Today as the world celebrates an occasion dedicated to mothers, I want to confess something to you.
Remember the day when I was all of 10 and I had come running to you crying hysterically. I wanted to tell you about that Uncle Maa…who used to touch me at wrong places. You thought I was imagining things. You hit me on my hands as you felt this was due to over exposure of stupid movies. You assumed I did not know how to behave myself and did not speak to me for two days as a punishment. I cried a lot and apologized to you so that you would speak to me again Maa. You forgave me with a promise that I will not cook up such stories again. I promised and hugged you tightly. 

That night I buried that child in me…… 

I grew up and had my first crush. I felt love for the first time which was always missing between you and dad. You detested him while I loved him madly. I had managed to secure admission to my dream course. You threatened me. I relented and asked you to let me study promising to forget that boy. You broke the pact Maa….and I could never pursue my dream course ever again. 

That night I buried those dreams in me…..

As I grew up and it was time for my marriage you thought I was a shrew who needed to be tamed. You never heard my pleas that all I ever wanted was love and care. You found a ‘perfect match’ for me; an educated person with decent income for whom I was only a source of entertainment. The day I got married you were beaming with joy as your dream had come true.

That night I buried the heart in me…….

I underwent many things but according to you it was my fault. You felt your upbringing had failed. You thought I was too stubborn to accommodate and adjust. Despite seeing my condition you sent me back that day loaded with lots of advice on how to please my husband and in-laws.

That night I buried the soul in me…..

I was happy when I got the ‘good news’. I was excited to bring a new life in this world. For me it was a soul – for others it was a gender. That day they decided to kill that soul while I lay blissfully unaware. When I woke up everything was over.

That night I buried the woman in me…..

Maa… this dying in bits and pieces has exhausted me completely. There is nothing more left in me. I can only see a dark tunnel in the name of the future as I stretch my neck to look forward to those beautiful tomorrows you spoke about always. It takes a mammoth effort from me each day to survive and today there is no more strength left in me. 

Tonight I quit as I bury the remnants in me….

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!

                                                                                                                        From,
Your loving daughter.

Comments

  1. Excellent piece of writing! Poignant!:)

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  2. I was reading and feeling as if I have read that before. I felt as if I knew what was going to follow. Maybe it is just too close to my story, maybe

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    1. M touched :o)

      I strongly believe there must be some special connection because of which you felt all that while reading this post. Thank you so much for making me feel special!

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  3. It makes me very sad for none of my words thoughts or dreams were ever listened to. I wanted to tell about that uncle too but my words were never heard.

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    1. Believe me when I say, I can truly understand how does that feel... thanks for being here.

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  4. amazing amazing writing

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  5. Brilliant! powerfully penned.

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  6. Pulled my heartstrings, and made me sad and thoughtful.

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    1. I am glad it made you thoughtful - that was the main intention behind this post. I want each one of us to think what we are doing in the name of customs and traditions.

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    2. Customs, which are of no use, needs to be stopped. Traditions which have no explantion need not be followed. Only being human, kind and supportive is needed in family.

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    3. Ditto - my thoughts. But I think we are still far away from that ideal world you described. We all need to understand this and make an effort towards improving things collectively.

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  7. Hey! The views are delivered straight. The helplessness of the daughter and carelessness of the mother are written so beautifully! Nice one!

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    1. Thank you so much...for understanding the exact feeling I had in mind when I wrote this.

      Welcome here...hope to see you here more often!

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  8. This is so sad .. if only parents put their kids always first , and listen to them ..

    I dont know what to say ...

    I do beleive there are parents like these and maybe More now then their use to be as everyone lives in their own world
    Bikram's

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    1. Yes there are parents like this and it is a sad fact of today's world. I wish we all would stop doing this to each other soon...

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  9. This is much more than beautiful! :')

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    1. Thanks ..... you know this post is very close to my heart and this comment of yours touched me.

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  10. Wow..It's really a great post..wonderfully written. congrats..

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  11. A beautiful and stunning piece of writing..

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  12. Just heart-breaking . . . beautifully rendered - a powerful, powerful letter.

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  13. An interesting work I would say. This shows very cruel part of a Mother ? Isn't that?

    P.S: Rules are applicable here as well. ;)

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    1. Well that was MEAN!! :/

      Appreciate your comments but I dont agree to the cruel part of a mother. A mother herself is also bound by many customs and traditions which she has seen since childhood and it is difficult for her to break those shackles to see a different world. Her psyche has developed to a level where she is unable to see the pain her rigid thoughts are causing she can just imagine the shame it will bring to them. It is this rigidity in nature that leads to all this. I am sure this mother would never be able to forgive herself after reading this....!

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    2. I didn't get you point exactly. I think I lost in between somewhere.
      My take is But someone has to start ! and why you want to make mother realise as you are telling she can't change herself as she is in the shackles of this tradition and customs?

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    3. Nope...neither did you nor did I lose out in between somewhere. I agree someone has to start and this post was intended to make each one of us realise this .

      My intention was not to make a mother realise anything. I am sure somewhere deep inside the corners of her heart she already knows all that was happening. But she is helpless. I wanted US as a society to realise how painful it all is...this age old customs and traditions.

      Hope I am able to explain my POV to you by this :)

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  14. Wow...I'm at a loss for too many words. Beautiful writing...you definitely have a way of drawing the reader in.

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    1. I can understand....everytime I read it - it has the same effect on me too. How can we is the first thought that comes to my mind!

      Thank you so much for such beautiful words..truly appreciated!

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  15. Amazingly profound.....so true.

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    1. Sadly yes....this is the truth. Our society strangely follows so many customs without thinking about their relevance in today's times at all.

      Thanks for stopping by !!

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  16. This is such a poignant piece of writing. The tortures a major portion of the fairer sex have to suffer but they are so helpless at times that they can't do any thing about it...poignant, 'Me'.... so moving and at the same time infused with harsh reality... love it :):)

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    1. Thanx for such lovely words :)

      Our society needs to realise the kind of pain it in inflicting on the fairer sex by trying to follow some age old traditions and customs which have become redundant by now.

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  17. I feel so sad for the daughter :-(

    This is so beautifully written and the impact is so strong.

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    1. Sometimes we are so helpless in the vicious circle of circumstances.

      Thank you so much for your lovely compliments :)

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  18. Such a heart-felt post..and why it is undelivered is so true....not accepted by receiver's mind !!!
    The mother never meant to be bad but was unable to release herself from the clutches of years of conditioning in the name of custom, tradition, approvals of society....she prefers to keep the child's 'story' in back burner coz she feels the shame and juicy talks it would bring from the 'civilized' society would be more painful...

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    1. Thank you so much for appreciating this and truly understanding my feelings behind writing this post.

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  19. Lovely post! so poignant, leading one on and on till the final act of destruction!!

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    1. :)

      'Final Act of destruction' well that is what this was!!

      Welcome here and hope to see you here more often !

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  20. This is an excellent piece!! Beautiful, poignant and reaches your heart straight. With a post like this, you totally deserved to win. Sheer brilliance.

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    1. Thank you very much Swarnali :)

      Glad you liked my thoughts!

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  21. BRILLIANT PIECE!!
    Out of all the posts you have written, this definitely holds the dearest place in my heart.

    <3

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    1. Same pinch - this one is my favourite too!

      I somehow feel it has a magic which can never be re-created by me ever again :)

      Thank you so much!

      <3 <3 <3

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  22. My eyes filled with tears after reading it...i fealt sad for the daughter as her own mother could never understand and with each passing day she kept on losing something finally lost herself as nothing was left as all her dreams crashed in a prospect of a vague future which never meant to be as she was made to believe...!!!

    loved it a lot...!!!

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    1. This is one of my most favourite posts till date on my blog and I also cry everytime I read it! It holds a piece of me in it :)

      Yes, I also feel sad for the daughter but I also feel sad for the mother as she was also a victim of circumstances and nothing else.

      Thanks, glad you loved it!

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  23. I had tears after reading this poignant post. A women needs only love and understanding which vanishes into thin air. emotions are very well captured.

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    1. :)

      Kalpana... tears is something I get everytime I read this for I simply cannot imagine how on earth did I write this post.

      You are right Kalpana I sometimes tell people the same thing - Love and respect. Is it like too much to ask for?

      Thanks so much..HUGS <3

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  24. Well written... but just too too sad...

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    1. Thanks :)

      Oh yes it is sad I know...and that sadness is spilled to other posts as well. Inside the usually bubbly and cheerful fun loving person that I am, there is a sad aspect too who is simply appalled at the way things are around!

      And my blog allows me to bring it out without any fear of being judged.

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  25. It just shows how messed up our priorities are!
    Parents would bother more about what the society or tradition thinks should be right for their kids, instead of what the kids want.

    And even after the kids becomes adults who are responsible for their own lives, they want to enforce upon what the perception of right is.


    What saddened me most was that the letter went undelivered. I wish that the mom could have read it, and understood.

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    1. True and I completely agree with you. We are all messed up. We dont know what we want and expect our children to know what "we" want so in turn we dont allow them to ever know what they want and this cycle continues like this for ages!

      To be honest I wonder if this letter had been delivered had the mother done something. She herself is the victim of our society. She would have tried to hide this one or pretend as if it never reached her just to ensure not to attract any unwanted attention. This issue would have been buried just like many other that keep happening around us daily..

      Wish it would have been understood.......truly, from my heart.

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  26. Wow, Firstly there were lot of comments and I had to scroll down like I was getting down some stairs. I am so happy that social muscles are helping you.

    Coming back to the article. In the name of pleasing everyone, we often forget things that we do live. I liked the crush thing. I guess because I too buried my dreams. But now found my new found dreams. Your writing is very profound and exclusive :D

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    1. :)

      This is one of those rare posts on my blog Sridevi which was liked a lot and commented for it won a contest at Blogadda !

      And I agree it is all done in the name of pleasing everyone. I wish our parents, the society and all understood this and never forced their daughters to do things which perhaps even they did not want to do.

      Thanks so much once again for such lovely words.. it is touching!!

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  27. Sad. :(
    I loved how you connected the whole thing with end of each part of the daughter every time.

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    1. Thanks Srishti... it was easier maybe coz I am a daughter myself and could feel all that was even unsaid there!

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  28. I have gooseflesh... I really don't know what to say. And seeing that it was a happy mother's day post makes me realise how much the world is facing under the garb of love and protection. I really enjoyed this post a lot and in fact I believe this is something I need to share with people. This needs to be a must read by others... Loved it a lot ...

    Richa

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    1. I agree with you Richa the world is seriously facing a lot under the disguise of love. As I like to say hate and lust are the only two pure emotions. Love is always camouflaged beneath all other things.

      Thank you so much for sharing this one... and am glad my words could do that :)

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  29. Sad but true. There ate women around us who bury their dreams their aspirations, their very souls due this unjust society we live in! It's always the girl/ woman's fault no?? I could feel the hopelessness and the frustration in the letter. Very powerful writing! Thanks for sharing Richa!

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    1. Yes Aditi, it is always our fault. I have written a post on that too on my other blog where I wrote Guilty my lord for it's my fault when I get raped, when I am molested and when all such things happen to me... for it's my fault I am born as a girl in our country.

      I am touched that my words which seemed random and out of frustration at that moment had so much power :)

      Thanks so much Richa for sharing it and Aditi for stopping by <3

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  30. This was a little too dark for me ... It is difficult to imagine a mother going wrong all the time ... But yes, i agree in bits and pieces to one girl or the other, some parts of it become reality...
    But your words and message was strong ...gave me gooseflesh ... but left me sad

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    1. Shiva the mother is not wrong. It is the society that compels her to do somethings which perhaps she does not even realise she is doing as wrong.

      And yes it is reality. Thanks - those lines mean a lot to me as it means I succeeded as a writer there :)

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  31. There are mother's like this who do everything they think that would make their child happy... but they never realise that they are destroying their innocent one.
    So powerful. .. and excellently written!

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    1. True Me.. and that is what is more hurting than anything else!

      Thanks so much dear :)

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  32. very poignant and thought provoking. the words hit like darts on the readers heart and mind. very well written :)

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  33. Very beautifully written Namrata. At each stage of life, girls are expected to clip their wings and wrap up their dreams. Sometimes parents behave as though the entire responsibility of keeping up the family name lies with the girl. In current times though women have achieved a lot, she is still expected to sacrifice everything for her family before marriage and to the husband's after her marriage. Hope atleast the next generation are liberated from all these 'traditions'

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    1. That is exactly what I wish and hope Rakshatha but somehow I don't see it coming... we are still binding the next generation also. Our parents however much they hated it all made us go through the same things in the name of culture and not able to stand up for what they felt right and perhaps we will carry forward it... It needs a lot many efforts to eradicate something whose roots are so deep.

      But an attempt is always appreciated <3

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    2. you are right.. let's see what we will do

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  34. that wish 'happy mother's day' after burying all the remnants in her....just can't take that out of my mind... sad, that this might have been someone's real life story ...

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    1. Yes Pratikshya it is very sad and this one still haunts me till date... there are a very few posts that give me goosebumps (written by me) and this one tops the list.

      hugs <3

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  35. I have no words to express what I felt after reading this, Privy. I just want to say I am so thankful that I discovered this deeply moving post of yours from two years ago.

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    1. Hugs <3

      Nothing said yet I can understand all that you must be feeling right now...

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